things to do

wah! so many things to do! actually struggling to manage my time for once...sigh...

•  servant team meetings
•  discipling two people
•  being discipled
•  phone call with support coach
•  support raising
• write letters
• send letters
• make phone calls
• follow up with people
• outline presentation
• meet up with people
• send thank you cards
• make appointments
• school
• close bank account
• find sub-leaser for summer possibly
• large group
• small group
• DC sharing
• ticket paying
• processing
• leaving
• letting go
• feelings
• ending well
• reconciliation
• thinking about decisions
• going to Indonesia with Dad
• overall support raising schedule
• find a sub-leader or not
• taking car to the shop
• set up staff e-mail
• other necessities and errands

sigh...there are possibly more...I can't believe I'm starting to think about not having a Sabbath but that isn't an option at all. I need my Sabbath to get refreshed so I can do the things I am doing. But I am getting so tired and drained so quickly now. sigh.  I need more time. I would love a day to just be able to run errands and think about decisions to make. Or like have support raising take care of itself. Or I can just hermit myself. I don't like that option though.

Possibly for the first time I am going to need a calendar/written schedule. But that's not gonna change how tired I am and freaked out I am.

Life needs a pause button or like needs to stop being frustrating and things need to stop be being messy. Sigh.

I am just ranting so I am going to stop now.