freaking out

i am starting to freak out!

gah! it is freaking scary.

my best to my parents mean that I get A's and B's on occasion.

and given this, what I am doing now for my 2 midterms tomorrow is not good enough for them.

and I have stupidly found myself in a hole and perpetual circle of studying and doing school for them and not for God.

there isn't much more I can do right now to study but I know that there is little chance that I'll ace both midterms tomorrow at this state and thus I am freaking out.

why the heck am I doing this for my parents and not for God? I have no idea but I am freaking out and scared.