freedom

i want to live as a free person. free from any attachments to the world, to gifts from God, to pain, to fear, to basketball, to people, to people's opinions, to status, to anything. to be free. to act upon the freedom given to me.

i want to trust. to trust God with everything. to give Him my all. to be okay with all the mystery and be okay with the waiting and be willing to wait patiently and actively.

i want to be humbled, to be broken, to be free from judgment of people and to be free from judging people.

i want all of this. i am so far from all of this. so much room to grow. and it will take a lot of time. i will be patient (no matter how much i need to work to be patient).

next year is probably gonna contain a lot of growing up for me and for people. it's gonna be so different. different people= different dynamics. and it just hit me how different it's gonna be with seniors moving out and stuff. it's scary. i'm scared but i'm excited.

i want God! i want Jesus! there is nothing else I need. I love Jesus! Jesus, You are enough! set me free! thank you for freeing me. thank you for freedom. may i make use of my freedom.

may You be glorified and Your name be known and Your good, pleasing, and perfect will be done in all our lives as it is in heaven.