this day

i went to irvine today! and also the project briefing! it was a lot of fun...used up a bit of money but it was worth it. best 13 hours of summer so far oustide of davis.

i just spent a couple hours hanging out w/ cindy cuz we were waiting for lunch and then i saw jeanine and other irvine ppl i kno at lunch which was pretty good. then we went back to their respective apartments and packed up their stuff into a couple of cars and drove the ones going to project to briefing.

at briefing, i saw a bunch of ppl i knew from EHSP '08 , Davis project kids, and also ppl i've met during the year. i wasn't able to get dinner w/ 'em cuz the DC was expensive and i couldn't get swiped in so i left and got dinner w/ jeanine and the other ppl dat were visiting.

after dinner, me and jeanine went back and joined their meeting which was hecka exciting and interesting. after the meeting, the project ppl had their own team times so me, jeanine, and russell entertained ourselves w/ the mics and stuff for like an hour and a half and just left cuz we were too tired and were not able to hang out w/ the project kids but its all good. hopefully i get to come back on tuesday before they leave.

but yeah, on the way home, i was thinking ( probably not a good idea while driving) and i realized dat i learned a bunch of stuff during the meeting.

i learned that joy really comes in when loving God and trusting God comes together. I thought that was pretty awesome and that project is all about trusting God w/ every lil bit of detail and dats supposed to prepare us to trust God w/ every lil bit of detail of ourlives and I don't do that a lot. I really worry a lot and try to wonder what God's will is instead of trusting that His will will be done and that everything is in control and there is no need to worry.

also realized that i'm really excited for the people going to project this year and those who are in project right now, and i am going to pray for them like no other and hopefully continously until this moment in their lives is over.

oh! and there was this one video on "Q.A.S. (Quiet Asian Syndrome)", it was pretty funny but i wonder if we were laughing not only b/c it was pretty funny but also to make ourselves believe that it is comical and not dat big of a problem. but the truth is, that it is a huge problem and its not gonna fix itself. i'm not saying i didnt laugh either, cuz i did, but i'd say some part of me was laughing to numb the relativity of the video to my life, cuz honestly, i've lived with Q.A.S. all my life and had it myself and sometimes the syndrome does come back and i become quiet. its the truth, it sucks, but asians tend to be too quiet and have this so called syndrome. (it's not a real doctoral syndrome to my knowledge)

and there was also this time of sharing, where the students were sharing in front of the whole group their story of how they got to this point of going to project and it seemed like the subject of still raising support was not shared. like, all the ppl dat were sharing was how they got called to go to project or how God provided but none of God still providing. i was pretty sad there wasn't cuz i'm sure some ppl were worried and discouraged and i'm pretty sure if some1 came up and shared that they arent dont w/ raising support, not to have a pity party but to encourage and testify to the fact that God will provide and is faithful, it would really help those who are discouraged b/c they havent raised their full support yet. oh wells.

one last thing, this is one long blog, sorry, but there's a lot on my mind. but anyways, on the way home, the song "God of this City" was playing, and i'm just beginning to learn the heart behind the lyrics and why A.K. chose to have dat song played at the end of project. it was cuz this song is an encouraging song and also a song of thankfulness and gratefulness. i can't think of an way to explain this except to show it.

so here goes, and this goes out to all the graduates and those leaving Davis or any ministry, thank you for all the work and service you have done for the Lord and for the city you were in, and to you i also say, GREATER THINGS ARE STILL TO BE DONE b/c GOD IS GOD OF ALL THESE CITIES, so thank you and even greater things will be done through the Lord. :)

P.S. i really need to work on titles