hate home

i am hating home right now.

i just had a short convo w/ my dad about sin which involved me admitting that i do struggle w/ "something" and him asking me "y can't u just stop?"

it just left me feeling alone and lonely. and thinking that my dad is disgusted w/ me and what i struggle with.

it even shows cuz he changed the subject after he asked me how often i do fall and me lying to him saying "once in a while" he even fell asleep eventually.

this is lame. i'm feeling so sad. i want my community so bad. i don't want to be home right now.